Waving goodbye

When it is all over,

I will be standing here waving my hand to say good bye…

Dont you dare come closer,

My demons will consume you again, Dont you try…

Caused you too much…

Too much of your life because of my sins and my deeds.

Stay away from my touch…

It is good for you to stay away, may be that’s all you need.

Dont even miss me…

My dreams will also cause just pain in life for you.

Dont you ever see…

Or look again over the things with me you been through.

Just want you to know…

That i tried my best to keep you out, trust me i did try…

I couldn’t leave you though…

And I still want to see you there waving good bye.

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An Understanding

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Are you cold inside, or you just try to show…?
Does it feel better or do you feel low?
Those moments when you laughed and moved away…
Those times you were strong or you were running in a way.
I am kind of curious my heart, because we are not so different, just same…
Little lost, little clueless, little in search what to call it, whom to blame.
You gave your place to someone then felt alone and stress…
You got scared I think, but then made a permanent friend, darkness.
You feel safe in dark, it protects you doesn’t it always…
Light revels you to outer world, which seems always a mess.
Dark is easy for you to survive then keep it with you, I don’t mind…
I understand you now, we are not so different just same kind.

Happy New Year

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Huh what a year it has been…

Some losses some wins.

But i am happy, i was never deceived…

Life doesn’t have to be perfect, just has to be lived.

 

Cool though that i met few people i am gonna hang on…

Some loved one i lost, but hey show must go on.

One more year has passed and i still have smile on my face…

New year, new targets with same old kickass attitude at base.

 

Time doesn’t stop for anyone, so let’s be like time…

Never hang on to which disturb life’s melody and rhyme.

Though I don’t wanna run too fast thats I’ll miss the beautiful sights…

Beautiful sights of this circular race track what we call life.

 

Just one last thing I learnt that what is gone is gone…

What is left with me is mine, but hey not for long.

So lets enjoy with me whatever we have now my dear…

For now we are together so lets make it a Happy New Year.

Game of cards

We all living to do our best…

But all you need to do is relax and rest.

Forget about tomorrow, it will be always there…

Forget about what others will think, why to care.

We are not here to win, just enjoy the fucking game…

Game of cards is on, your hand will not always be same.

Aces are only 4, dont try to count more than that…

You are always all in, and yeah your life is your bet.

Still you will never lose all until you are sitting other side…

Fate is your opponent, will take you to unpredicted ride.

Enjoy the journey of ups and down like a fucking game…

Game of cards is on, your hand will not always be same.

Thunder Of Thoughts

Mind has its own game to play…

What you know, what you want, it doesn’t matter anymore.

Tiered of trying in every possible way…

What you knew, what you wanted, it doesn’t matter anymore.

The white surface is filled with black dots…

Mind is clouded with this thunder of thoughts.

Fair or unfair who cares in the end…

What you know, is about to change anyway in sometime.

Call it an enemy or your best friend…

Fate was never with you, same goes with your time.

The white surface is filled with all black dots…

Mind is clouded with this thunder of thoughts.

Many have came and wrote down all they did…

What you did, what you care, who cares about those all.

They are here to buy your life, oh heard a last bid…

What you can do now besides answer your highest call.

The white surface is filled with all black dots…

Mind is clouded with this thunder of thoughts.

Let me

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Let me think in a way you think about life…
Just give me a minute to adjust.
But i have my own view, sort of a strife…
May be some issues with trust.

Let me follow you till the end of this journey…
I may find my closure too.
But you have to laugh on this moment of irony…
I never meant to be through.

Let me look around and check what i can pick…
But baggages are already heavy.
I don’t know where is you past, what is that trick…
Why i have my dark past to carry.

Let me know why you ask again and again whats wrong…
I don’t like to repeat it to you.
Though i don’t like you to go away but i am strong…
Really I can smile in pain too.

Let me tell you something I was never a part of your world…
But you deny the reality.
Don’t worry it wont be long, you wont see me whirled…
You deserve so much better than me.

Killer

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“He seems a good example of obsession, obsession to complete his job. I would have considered him as my friend as he almost reminds me of myself.”

He took a deep breath and gave a full stop to his notes about his new assignment. He knew that he has to get up early tomorrow, tomorrow is a big day. He kept his small red notebook in his jacket, turned off the light and slept.

“So Mr. Sean how are you feeling today?” Dr. Richard Franko asked his patient, he wanted to start conversation as light as possible.

“I am good Doctor, is it busy for you today also” Mike Sean replied with a concern.

“No No, today my whole time is dedicated to you only, No one even allowed in this room for next 6 hours.” Richard was totally ready to hear the full story from Mike.

Richard is a very famous Psychiatrist of United States, and his life is so busy which a usual cost of fame. Recently he got so much praises and fame for his research papers about criminal phycology. He normally takes 1-hour session with his patients, but if he finds some cases complex or in his work ‘Interesting’, he gives full day for his patient.

He found Mike’s case quite interesting. Two days ago he received a case file from FBI for one of their field officer Mike Sean. According to report Mike has an Impulse of killing and though he is a very efficient in his work, he needs to go through this process due to recent events in one of the shoot-out. Mike Killed 4 gangsters. Reported by fellow officer those gangsters could have surrender but Mike didn’t give them chance to do so.

“Mike tell me more about your childhood, you said yesterday that your father was not so kind and well behaved with your mother and you. I would like to know more about your father’s behavior and your feeling for the same” Richard jumped to the point when he saw that Mike with stable mind set.

“My father was a farmer, and a very good person, he never misbehaved with me or my mother or anyone, he was a very kind hearted person” Mike replied with a serious face.

“But yesterday you said that your father was abusive and used to beat your mother in front of you” Richard was confused now.

“Oh Yes that…because I wanted you to sit with me for this 6-hours session Doctor, I am sorry that I lied yesterday” Mike had a calm look.

“Why, I didn’t understand, why you wanted me for this 6 hours, do you want to discuss something else” Richard was losing his patience.

“Yes, I actually lied about so many things, for starter I am not in FBI, and the report that you received was fake too. My name is also not Mike” Guy sitting next to Richard was very straight and believable with his every answer.

“Who are you, and what is this all about” Richard was no more in his senses, he stood up and became defensive.

“I am here to kill you Doc, someone is really unhappy with you” He gave a very cunning smile to Richard as he took out his gun and pointed it to Richard.

“Why? What wrong I did to you” Richard was in sweat now, he was at the edge of crying.

“Ohh no Doc, I really like you, even I really wanted you to be my friend, you can read it here” He opened his red notebook and showed it to Richard from distance.

“Then why?” Richard burst out in tears, he sensed that he could not escape it.

“As I said doc, someone wants you dead, and that someone paid me to make you no one” He has now a very cold look on his face.

“But you know Doc, you were right about at least one thing yesterday that I have a killer instinct in me, and I am obsessed with my job”

“Who sent you to kill me, I can pay you more” Richard came on his knees.

“Sorry doc, I am very honest in my profession, I can’t tell you before killing” He took an aim to Richards heart and shot three times, every time ‘whoke’ sound came after hitting Richards chest. Richards body fell down on flour.

“Your friend Ryan is very upset that you stole his research and published with your name, Good bye doc, see you soon in hell” Killer closed the room behind.